actually i do know why i woke up pissed off its because of something minor that happened last night and it was the first thing i thought of when i woke up and that just completely set my mood for the rest of the day

not to mention it made me too nervous to even comfortably speak so theres that

and of course i managed to make it worse by thinking about how much anxiety i feel when it comes to actually confronting people when they actually personally upset me and i literally pissed myself off because im such a fucking pansy and cant just sit there and say “hey that wasnt very cool of you” or anything not even to my own fucking girlfriend

i guess being picked on all my life and actually getting threatened to get beaten up and actually getting beaten up have made me literally terrified to make enemies so here i am too scared to just be fucking honest to people because i just want everyone to be happy and be my friend